Peace to you my angel / Uncle Chris (Godfather)Read >>
Peace to you my angel / Uncle Chris (Godfather)
I rarely use the word hate. Having said that, I hate today. I've dreaded writing this post all day. I have good friends, bad friends and people who are no longer friends and I don't wish the loss of a dear young one on any of them.
It's been six years and it really isn't any easier. I had no tolerance for nonsense today. I've been in a foul mood and all because I don't want to face the pain of this loss. It is truly something that few can understand.
I lost my God-daughter, my first daughter, 6 years ago. I've tried to comfort myself by saying that it was quick and that she really felt no pain. But that doesn't minimize the loss. The happy memories are there, but all of them simply bring me close to tears today.
Clarke Danielle Quarles-Reese, you are on my mind often and I wish that I had more time with you. But I have to be thankful for the time that I had. I'm going to light a candle in your honor and see if I can get myself together.
Another Year / Donnetta Quarles-Reese (Mommy)Read >>
Another Year / Donnetta Quarles-Reese (Mommy)
On this sixth Heaven date, I am missing you more than ever. I would do anything to trade places with you. If anyone deserved to live a long full life it was you. Clarke my life is a waste without you. I am a shell of my former self without you. When you died you took all the joy and happieness with you. You were my reason to live and that is gone. My new life is spent searching for meaning and purpose. You on the other hand, knew exactly what you wanted. And it is you that should be here pursuing your dreams.
I guess that is what hurts me the most. That you were taken so early in life, that you never got to fufull your dreams. I take comfort in the things you did get to experience in your short time on earth. And I thank God that he chose me to be your mother. Clarke you are missed six years later just as much as you were then.
The pain is a little duller, the grief bursts are a little less frequent and the tears are fewer; but you are missed just the same.
Today you would be 19. I wonder what you’re doing on this 6th birthday in Heaven. I know all the things you are not doing here on earth. I know all the things you never got to do and it hurts so much. I wanted you to fulfill all your dreams. I would give anything to have made that possible. If I could go back in time and trade places with you Dain, I would because you had so much life yet still to live. You were truly struck down in your prime.
But I must make peace with where you are now. And that place is Heaven. I hope Heaven got a little brighter for you when your Nana joined you. I know how much you love your Nana.
Dani, I hope they have birthday celebrations in Heaven and that you have a great time.
Remembering a special chiled / Peter Newell (Friend)Read >>
Remembering a special chiled / Peter Newell (Friend)
Luke 18:15-17 People were also bringing babies to Jesus for him to place his hands on them. When the disciples saw this, they rebuked them. But Jesus called the children to him and said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. Truly I tell you, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.” Close
Another Father's Day without you / Mike Reese (Father)Read >>
Another Father's Day without you / Mike Reese (Father)
I can't believe that I have had 5 Father's days without you little one. I miss you as much today as when you were lost to us. You made everyday Father's day.
What an Angel / Peter Newell (Mothers Friend )Read >>
What an Angel / Peter Newell (Mothers Friend )
Clarke, I cant believe it has been 5 years since we said good by to you. I know that you are watching everything up there in heaven. and I know that you would be so proud of you mom and what she has been doing in her life, especially with working with the organ donation. Close
Clarke Five years ago we said goodbye to you. It was way too early for you to leave us at only 13. That day my world stopped. It is just now starting to move slowly forward. Five years ago we cried over losing such a precious life. The thought of you not fulfilling your dreams still brings tears to my eyes. The tears have lessened in frequency over the years, but the sting of pain they leave is still there. Five years ago we were heartbroken by your death. The harsh reality that you would not be here anymore tore a hole in my heart. That hole is smaller now, but will never be repaired. Five years ago we mourned your passing. We gathered together to recognize all your good works on earth. I still praise your gifts of kindness and love often. Especially when I talk about organ donation. Five years ago we celebrated your arrival in Heaven. We remembered all the good times. All the joy you brought into our lives was shared amongst one another. Today I celebrate your life. I admire the way you lived your life to the fullest every day. I am trying now to do that. Clarke you are my hero. You are loved and missed very much.
Thinking about you! / Patty Solis (Friend)
Thinking about you and lifting your Mom up in prayer! Close
Clarke's birthday / Kim Stanley (Mother's friend )Read >>
Clarke's birthday / Kim Stanley (Mother's friend )
Happy Birthday, Clarke! You are dearly missed in this world, but I hope your friends and family know that you are only a thought away. May they feel your love always. XO Close
Been thinking about you alot lately. I guess because it is coming up on 5 years since we lost you. Been thinking about the last thing I said to you:
It's time for little Dani to close her eyes and say nite nite. It's time for little Dani to close her eyes and say nite nite. Go to sleep my little Dani, say nite nite my little girl Close your eyes my little Dani, you're my precious little pearl. It's time for little Dani to close her eyes and say nite nite.
Happy 18th Birthday / Donnetta Reese (Mommie)
Clarke today you would be 18. I think about who you would be today. I wonder where you would be going to college and what you would be studying. I know that it would be something in the performing arts. I wonder what you would look like at 18. Would you still have your baby face? What would your voice sound like? Would you still call me mommie or would it be mom or mother by now. I will never know the answers to these questions because you were taken from me all too soon. It feels like just yesterday you came into my life bringing so much joy and meaning to it. I loved you the moment I knew you existed. I continue to love you now that your soul has ascended to Heaven. I greatly miss your presence her on earth. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of you. I miss you so very very much. It feels like forever since I said goodbye to you. It’s been hard just getting by on regular days but especially difficult on your Heaven date and birthday. I imagine this would be the first birthday we would spend apart because you would be in school. This birthday like your 16th is really tough because it is one of those milestone birthdays. Today you are officially a young woman. I wish more than anything I could be celebrating with you. Until we meet again HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Love Mommie Close
The picture of Me you & Liya back in kindergarten right on my bulletin board in my room so I can always look over at your beautiful smile :) Heaven has quite a pretty angel up there with them :) You're very missed & you're always in my thoughts. I'll see you again one day & I'll be looking for that beautiful smile to greet me in Heaven when that day comes :) Love you Danni <3 Close
Reflection/ Adijat Agbo-Ola (Mothers Co Worker )Read >>
Reflection/ Adijat Agbo-Ola (Mothers Co Worker )
Although we have never met I feel as if know you. Ive looked at all of your pictures and heard so much about you. It saddens me that you are not still here to be with your family. But I know you are in Heaven with Jesus and that causes me to smile through the all tears.
Happy Heaven Day.
This website is truly wonderful. I have truly felt your love for Clarke through this computer screen. Ive been on an off this site since I arrived at work today. I have reflected on my own 22 year life. I cant explain how confused I am that God chose to take Clarke away. I think back to my High school graduation Prom College Graduation and other important moments in my life. What made me stay here with my mom and Clarke is not here with you? I feel overwhelmed with emotion and Ive never even physically met Clarke so I can only imagine how you feel as her mother. This makes me think of my own mother. It makes me want to cherish each and every moment with her to make time to go home to see her to call her more to make plans for Mother Daughter days. I wish I could take some of the pain you feel away. The burden seems so heavy. I ADMIRE your STRENGTH Mrs. Donnetta. I am AMAZED by your COURAGE but after all you are Clarke's mommy so it should be expected right? Mrs. Donetta keep on keeping on because you are inspiring all those around you. Trust me!
Adijat Jassmia Agbo-Ola
I know you may not understand why Clarke is not here with you but trust that you will be with her again one day. Walking down streets of gold Singing songs of praise Wanting for nothing Feeling no More PAIN and SORROW. ... just -- Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not onto your OWN UNDERSTANDING in all your ways acknowledge him and he will direct your path! Close
Heaven Date / Donetta Reese (Mommie)
Today marks the 4th yhear of your death. It hurts as much today as it did then. The world is such an empty place without you. Your smile made my world. 2011 was supposed to be your graduating year. I remember how we laughed at the thought of "the class of 11". I would do anything to hear your laughter now. I would do anything to see you walk across the stage to receive your high school diploma. Clarke you had so much potential. You would have become anything you wanted.
On this 4th anniversary of your Heaven Date you are missed more than ever. Much more than you can ever know. I feel like an empty shell. Just walking through life on autopilot most days. It hurts so much. I often wonder how much pain my heart can take. I only wish I could bring you back from Heaven to be with you again. I will hold you in my heart until we are together. Close
I am missing you so very much. Another tear is beginning with no you in it. This would be your graduation year. I hurt so much. Your Heaven date is fast approaching. It feels like I just lost you. Life is so unfair I can't began to describe the pain that I am feeling. I would give anything to have you back. I just want you to know that I love you so very very much.
Happy Birthday / Cecilia Spellman (Auntie)
Happy Birthday Dani! Regine and I miss you very much.
Love you. Close
Happy 17th Birthday / Chris Redding (Uncle/Godfather)Read >>
Happy 17th Birthday / Chris Redding (Uncle/Godfather)
I still remember the overjoyed call that I got announcing your arrival. I jumped into the car after work a couple days later to meet you in person. You grabbed my heart that day and never let go.
I wish that we were talking about school driving or even boys but alas that can't be. I know that I'm not supposed to understand everything. And this is something that I will never understand.
But you are still here with me and many other people. I love you I miss you but hopefully one day we will meet again. Close
Happy 17th Birthday / Clarke's Mommie (mother)
Seventeen years ago on a Tuesday just like today you came into my life. That was the most joyous moment of my life. It is hard going through another birthday without you. I can’t believe this is your 4th birthday in Heaven. I know that you celebrating up there with all your friends. I know that you have many friends because you had so many on Earth.
You are missed so much. I literally ache missing you so much. There is a hole in my heart. It will never mend until we are together again. I have to pacify myself with memories. Luckily I have plenty of those to keep you close to my broken heart. I remember that day 17 years ago today. You were so tiny and your skin so soft. I fondly remember all of your firsts. The first day of school your first dance recital your first report card and yes your first birthday. I would never have thought that you would not see your 14th birthday. Life dealt us a blow with your death.
I feel very grateful to have had your for 13 wonderful years. You give me great joy. Happy 17th birthday. Mommie Close